Since the news got published yesterday, I’ve been completely speechless. What happened is horrible and it broke our hearts. I myself have never battled with mental health issues, I’m a chipper person most of the time and I have absolutely no clue what it takes for a person to willingly end their life. I will probably never be able to make sense of this.
We all knew that Chester battled with a darkness inside of him. His addictions, his depressions, he talked about them openly and expressed himself in Linkin Park’s music. His family seemed to have a huge positive impact on him. Actually, when I think about Chester, it’s always the first thing that comes to my mind: how much he loved his family and with how much pride he talked about his children. He was extremely kind and many of us met him at meet & greets and experienced how great he was as a person.
I’m so sorry, no one could help him and that he couldn’t find another way. I hope he is content wherever he is and free from the pain he must have felt. Chester made this decision and we have to accept it. This was his life and he didn’t want to live it anymore. The pain his family, friends and band members feel right now must be incomprehensible for outsiders.
Chester had a huge personal value for millions of fans. Many of us have overcome our own type of darkness because of him. That’s the gift he gave us. He poured his soul out into his songs and it made us stronger, because we knew there was someone out there, who understands this darkness.
The impact he and Linkin Park had on our personal lives is tremendous: we found each other. That’s the greatest gift they could’ve given to us. Our community is still there. We are still here to help each other. Many of you have shared their own tributes, offered other fans their ears and virtual hugs, or arranged spontaneous meet ups. This is what this community has always been about and it fills me with hope. Instead of sharing some of the many heartbreaking lyrics Chester has sung to us throughout the years, I want to remind you of the positive words, he spread:
„We all fall down/ We live somehow / We learn what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger“
Don’t let this break us. Lets not become strangers. We are LP. Always.